I've had the story of Mary and Martha on my heart for weeks and I finally realized it was time for some life application. For those who don't know.. 

"As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord's feet listening to what he said. But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, "Lord, don't you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me." 

"Martha, Martha," the Lord answered, "you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her." 

-Luke 10:38-42

Boy, oh boy am I a Martha. A few months ago I was diagnosed with an anxiety disorder. This wasn't really news to me, but it was nice to hear those words from a licensed psychologist and not Dr. Google. In reality, all humans suffer from anxiety on some level, at least some times in their lives, but I suppose what makes those of us who have a "disorder" and not just normal emotion is the constant and almost suffocating level of it at times. 

Martha could be the bible's poster-child for anxiety, I'm sure of it. Worried, distracted, impatient.. the list goes on. In my everyday life, I'm guilty too of always getting worked up over the littlest things. I worry over the details and run myself ragged trying to make everything around me appear perfect. I'm a control freak, a clean freak and a let's-get-everything-done-right-now freak. It's exhausting.

Mary, on the other hand, is more at peace. She's calm, she's listening and learning. She's prayerful and at ease. She knew that there was a time and place for everything, and when Jesus is literally in your living room.. making sure the casserole is just right isn't a priority.

When Martha basically scolds Jesus, his response is perfect. He didn't say she was a horrible person for wanting to get things prepared for her guests, or that we, today, shouldn't take care of our households.. He just said Mary chose what is better. Checking off my mile-long to-do list isn't a bad thing, it just shouldn't be done without me choosing the better first.

I want to strive to be more like Mary. I don't think I can ever truly get away from my personality, but learning to let go and be present more often, instead of always preparing can only benefit me and my family. I'm hoping to be a Mary and soak it all up at His feet and then move forward with the day's tasks. 

Are you a Mary or a Martha?